Concept for Tetris game. Dunno if it would be fun. Just something random I thought of.

Just got back from a night of medium sirloin, elongated potato product, and, last but not least, bowling. My first time bowling, in fact! I put on some size 8 bowling shoes, picked up an 8-pound ball, and joined my brother, his girlfriend, and a couple of his buddies in a rather interesting game. At least, it was interesting to me.

In our two-hour game we managed to play three rounds. First and third rounds went to brother’s girlfriend, but, either by sheer luck or perhaps dormant talent, I managed to win the second round. Granted, this win was fueled a little by beer, but I don’t believe alcohol to be the sole reason that I was able to appear competent at a sport I had never before played.

Upon reflecting on this in the ride back home, and taking into account previous experiences in high school PE class, I came to a conclusion that my hand-eye coordination is at its peak when I shed the emotions which hold me back. Anxiety, self-doubt, you name it. But besides emotion, a certain focus also comes into play.

At one point when I was staring at the pins, trying to line up my approach, I entered into this novel “in the moment” state of mind. Just for a moment, my self-consciousness melted away. Just for a moment, my second guesses ceased. Just for a moment, my arm pulled back as I approached the lane, and subsequently let go of the ball when I bent towards the floor, all in one continuous motion. But during this time, I didn’t have to think. I didn’t have to worry. It just… happened. And a second later…

Strike!

Cue my victory dance. A smile on my face and a cheesy two thumbs up indicated both my success and my feeling of triumph over my own emotions.

Oh, if only I could feel this way more often! In my stay here with my brother, it has certainly been a goal of mine to find out how to feel alive… which, to be honest, has been a rather vague idea to me until tonight. Tonight, I caught a glimpse of it, and now I have a desire for more.

But for now, it approaches 4am and fatigue is starting to settle in. I’m unsure how often future posts will be made, but I thought this was a decent start for a new blog. Now that actual ‘things’ are happening in my life, this seemed appropriate since I’ve always had a desire to explore my thoughts.

We’ll see what happens.